If I Had Only Known

This weekend was a little crazy. Friday we enjoyed shopping in the big city at Bass Pro and other stores along the Red River. Sunday, we had a power outage that threatened to stick around awhile We were bound and determined to have hot water. Our journey to find a portable propane hot water heater/shower took us 45 minutes south our home and then the 1.5 hours north of our home to the Bass Pro- again. If I’d only known Friday what the future would hold.

It’s the same thing I could say about the long journey to have, or as it seems to be turning out, not to have kids.

If I’d have only known 8 years ago that it would end with me saying goodbye just when having kids was in reach. . .

If I’d have known that two years after we saw these boys, I’d nearly get to bring them home but not get to bring them home. . .

If I’d have known that each step of the way Cody and I would be on a different page. . .

Would I be as heartbroken as I am now? Would my spirit feel so broken?

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One Response to “If I Had Only Known”

1. WandaT says:

   May 6, 2009 at 9:36 pm

   (((HUGS))) to you.
   HE is always with you too.